Yes, yes it has. I’m now, like, 1.5 months into law school. I’ve lost none of the all-consuming fire that drove me forward and convinced me to return to this career path, but I’m starting to see the fissures and immovable objects that I’ll have to contend with if I want to use this degree for the things I thought I did. It’s a super-enervating experience, slowly realizing that at least two of the avenues you wanted to pursue for the just end are being rapidly closed–that by the time you graduate, the space that you’ll have to fit your lawsuits-as-sticks-of-dynamite are no longer the size of dynamite, but pinholes. No matter, though. This was the path I chose and, like every other dumb decision and mistake, I won’t cut my losses and acknowledge defeat. I’ll double down.
Anyway, I’m gonna be publishing all the college work that I’ve had saved in drafts–and I’ll be doing it today (at least, mostly). Maybe peeking at some old shit will remind me of why I’m here at all.